Bloganuary #16: Reluctance

I’ve woken up early – far earlier than I usually do – and the first thing I reach for is the notebook to do my morning pages.

Today is the 12th day that I have been doing the Artist’s Way. I’m proud of myself for keeping on going, although I haven’t been paying quite as close attention to the tasks this week as perhaps I should have.

The problem is that I still remember the tasks of this week from last time I attempted the Way. I read the book, roll my eyes, and say, “Not that again.” I wonder how much of it is a reluctance to work on myself. Reluctance to face up to what causes my artistic blocks in the first place.

But there are signs that the blocks are moving. Just yesterday, I picked up my sketching pencils for the first time in a while. I opened 100 Figures and Faces by Chris Legaspi and drew a few faces with a step-by-step guide. I have promised myself that one day I will have drawn all 100 figures and faces in this book. For now, I am at about five. Here is one of the drawings I did of a miserable girl (perhaps it is my inner child artist sulking that I have been ignoring them for so long):

See you tomorrow*.

*later today because I missed a day!

3 responses to “Bloganuary #16: Reluctance”

  1. Jennifer Avatar

    I’ll meet you in detention because of our late Bloganuary posts 😆
    And I totally agree with you about picking up something again and getting a sinking feeling again, but that being able to power on through is probably made *more* significant because of the previous experience…

    1. Richard Axtell, Writer Avatar

      Depending on which time zone you’re in, we not have been late at all… that’s my excuse anyway!

      1. Jennifer Avatar

        Aha – good point. I use the same reasoning for pouring a glass of wine at 4pm 🤭

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I’m Rhi

I’m just a writer trying to live slower and be more observant of my feelings.

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