I recently started a new job.
In short, it has been terrifying. At the same time, it has been wonderful.
Every day, I’ve learnt something new, and every day I feel I have made a massive mistake. Usually, both of those things came hand in hand.
My initial instinct was to beat myself up. Why was I making these mistakes? Why haven’t they just fired me already? But, after many pages of frantic anxiety writing in my journal, I stopped and really thought about it.
I’m new. I’m going to make mistakes. I’m still finding my way around. Also, all these mistakes I have made, I won’t make again because I am learning. With every misstep, I can take two steps forward in the future.
This has really helped by the welcoming and supportive atmosphere I’ve felt at this company. There is an acceptance that mistakes will be made and that we can own them and move on. I don’t feel – as I have at other jobs – that a mistake will have me standing in someone’s office, being told how bad I am.
I mean, I’m perfectly aware how bad I am.
But I’m getting better. The opportunity to do so is exciting, it’s wonderful and I feel like I’m growing as a person.
Long story short, I’m enjoying my new job!
C’est en forgeant qu’on devient forgeron !